Very irritated with myself.....

Good Morning....

So last night I ate WAY TOO MUCH. Like I just was stupid with portion. I hat probably twice what I should have for meatloaf and definetly twice what I should have for dumplings!

Today I come weigh myself at work - before I had ate or drank - Im up 3-4 pounds. I am sooo angry at myself. I am so ashamed. This is the one part that I hate dieting with people. I know when I get home my brother is going to ask me how I did. Honestly ... I am going to tell him I didnt weigh in. Hes just so competative and as it is I hide what I eat from him. I know I shouldnt have to...but I do. I guess thats part of the addiction.

On the plus side of things, those damn snacks that they had left are now gone so I dont have to worry about eating those any longer! And I have learned my lesson I am going to tell people not to leave stuff - TAKE IT! I know I just have to look at this gain and move forward!

Today is a new day!

I had a granola bar and water for breakfast, granola bar and water for my first break, meat loaf for my lunch break, and chips and a diet soda for my last break. The bad part is I dont get off of work to eat supper until 930pm and of course have to be to bed by 1130 -- Which ruins my two hour rule.

Went to Oprahs site yesterday looking to see where she recorded cause we are looking for stuff to do in Chicago. Ne ways while I was at her site, she is looking for people who need to lose more then 100 pounds. So I wrote my story - I know I probably am not interesting enough, however I would like to see the show when she has it on. I guess I need to start DVRing her :)

I suppose I should get back to work - 12.5 hours and only down 1.5 hours. BOOOOO!