I need to do better....

Ive decided I need to do better at this blogging thing. I feel like I dont get on here enough for myself or enough to help my friends and be there for them. For some reason I just keep forgetting it.

Well its been a bad couple of days for myself. My last weigh in on Monday I only lost 2-3 pounds I think that left me a little down. I know I should be ok with that but it just allowed me to not be as driven. Then I started my time of month the other day which doesnt help either :)

Tuesday we had a cook out, and I dont think I did as horriable as I could have :) I was happy about that. I did break my rule about going up for seconds however did half way decent the rest of the day. Yesterday was a night mare...I ate chocolate for every meal! BAD I told myself I was going to get back on track today, but since I woke up to cranky to eat breakfast, I had one of the donuts I took for work snack (even though I was kind enough to bring healthy stuff for the people that wanted it). Not horriable but could have been better. Then for lunch my boss asked me where I wanted to go... Today is our last day to work together before I start my other assignment. I didnt give any answers, as she was paying and I feel so uncomfortable with that. She choose chineese. Not the worst option but I could have picked a place where I could have eaten healthy. I broke my going up for seconds rule there toooo UGH. I didnt do bad outside of the fried mac and cheese bites but still!!!! Tonight when I got home I had these dumb little debbie snacks in which I dont buy but the other day someone offered to leave them from the cook out (I was strong and didnt eat any that night....) UGH why would they do that!!!!!
For dinner we are having pork chops and stuffing so I should be ok....but still not a stellar week - but could be worse. I guess we will find out Saturday when I get to weigh myself next.

Outside of food...hasnt been a horriable week. This is my last official week at full time and I jump to part time hours. Im hoping to find something else but that requires doing a resume and stuff and I have been really undriven enjoying spending time with Alan. The new assignment is going ok, though it is not all that I have wanted. Too many clicks, and it reminds me why I left the ER setting previously...however it is a job right? I should be thankful I have one... It still is temp, but there is at least the chance of being hired on at this job. So I will pray for the best.

My relationship is better then I could imagine, of course I think I could always be better for him and myself but I definetly can say its the happiest I have ever been and I feel extreamly blessed.

Family - well thats another issue I will talk about when the oven isnt calling my name to finish cooking.