Smiles....

Its amazing how easy it is to smile when you have someone so great in your life. I dont know what it is but I have claimed to be in love many times in my life. However I am truly content with life, which allows me to focus on other things, such as my faith and myself. I know it shouldnt be this way, however I was in a rut where all I was focusing on was finding that amazing someone. Thank God ... he was right there!

Tonight I came to work and hoped on the scale. 431 pounds which is up from the 427 which was my lowest in the past couple weeks, however it is steady from early this week and still down from my first weigh in at 440 pounds. This makes me very excited, and I was able to get back on track...which is a good thing.

Work has been better then I thought tonight which is a good thing. I still dont know what the future holds but thats one of the crazy parts, Im not super nervous about it. Maybe I should be a bit more, but I think knowing that I have God and Alan ... my life doesnt seem to be shaken by these small things :)

I get off of work at 730 and I plan to sleep until about 2 - then gonna get up and do some more job searching, and maybe some cleaning around the house. Big Brother is on and Real World - of course the DVR will get good use. Will need to do some laundry and back and Friday morning we are off to Green Bay.

Very excited about GreenBay however this will leave temptations for going off of the diet, but I think as long as I look at serving size I should be ok. I know I am going to be retaining water because one of the things I am most excited for is a Gyro :) NUMMY..havnet had a real one since the last time I was there.

Alan has been amazingly strong that I feel pretty guilty. He had a run in with his boss a couple weeks ago and some of his other coworkers had told her he was not doing his job. They treated him pretty rotten and said they were giving him two weeks. He stated that he did nothing wrong, and I believe him, expecially since one of the things they said was he was not starting work until 30 minutes late...and Im the one that drops him off...so I know hes there. Ne ways I would have just left....I would have said F this. He didnt. He went and from the looks of it, they are giving him more hours so they havent fired him yet. Plus he puts up with it even though hes still catching people trying to get him in trouble. Then I am calling in sick because I cant stand my job. Hes sooooo amazing!

School starts in a few weeks and I am so excited. I really hope I disapline myself a bit better this semester and finally finish something. I am so tired of my past, starting things and never finishing them. I am better then that and I need to prove that to myself.

Ive had some female issues this week and Alan has taken SUCH good care of you. Doing some things that he doesnt need too and most men would be like..>EWWWWW.

I fall in love more and more everday.

Made a tater tot casserole today for the first time. SO simple but its kind of a simple victory for me as I am exploring the kitchen a bit more and I LOVE cooking. I have never really eaten it before because of the way people eat it and I didnt think I would eat my own. IT was GOOD! I am so loving the cooking at home and having more time to bake and clean!

Well I suppose I am going to head out for a little bit. I have a few lists I would like to post for myself so I might be back later.