Thought I would kill some time after I just got done with a test that I bombed. Seems to be the thing lately, MAN I dont know how people go to school full time and work full time and have a family, I could never manage!
Didnt really plan as I never do on a early morning, so my stomach is growling as it doesnt feel real full. ONly a hour and a half until lunch though, so hopefully it will hold off from making me eat my fingers. Though I DO LOVE the feeling of being hungry because when I am off track, I dont feel that. I dont know what hunger is because I am constantly eating, which means I am never hungry, instead I feel pain of constant fullness.
Yesterday we had ruebens for dinner, and they were really good, and acctually not to bad in calories. I love measuring things because you really can have more if you scale back on some ingrediants. I think I acctually ate under my calories last night because I didnt eat the dessert I was going to. I just didnt crave it I guess....and I made the decision that if I didnt want it, there was not point in eating it just to eat it.
Thinking of going to the gym on my way home tonight just to do even ten minutes on the treadmill, I have no reason not to I go right past it on my way home today.....GOTS TO GO!
Looking at my schedule this morning I noticed that I have a lot of early mornings - seems the days of having a day to sleep in are over, which hey wouldnt be bad if I could train myself to get to bed by 9 or 10 each night, Heck if I got to bed by 8 then it would be sleeping in. For the past two months Alan and I have just been doing school and havent been lucky enough to have jobs, so now that we are working differnt shifts - its getting a bit tricky, but it feels good to be achieving things.
The other day in class a girl was wearing this super cute outfit. She probably things Im WIERD because I told her that was one of my inspirations to getting thing. I LOVED that outfit. IT was a pair of black tights, with long brown boots, with a jean short skirt and a black turtle neck. Not that I am interested in women, but I think sometimes I tend to look at them in desires of what I wish I could dress like :)
I read something on someones blog today that they feel they wernt getting jobs because of their weight. It was kind of nice to read that because I can completly relate and sometimes people think I am just making excuses when I say that. ITS TRUE. People are so worried about that image.
Well I suppose class is going to start soon so I should get going. I hope all is well for everyone else!!!
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You are not weird because you looks at what girls are wearing and wishing you could wear the clothes. I don't go into certain stores knowing all they have are the "cute" skinny clothes that I can't fit into.
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